Chapter 4

Why doesn't mother understand I love her and I try not to be bad?Why does she do these things to me?I don't understand.I thought I had a tactic going...I could ask the neighbors for lunch,and tell them I lost mine.That worked out pretty good until one lady knew mom,then I got it. She punishes me for stealing food...but if she would just fed me a little bit then I wouldn't have to steal.Father said that and then I had to eat my Own puke.I wish things would go back to the old days.I hate when Father is away even though when he is home he doesn't really notice me anymore.When he was away last time she made me drink ammonia.I thought I was going to die right there.When we went on vacation while father and my brothers were away she made me eat Russell's soiled diaper.I would never do any thing mother does to me to her.Doesn't she love me?Am I really that bad?