Chapter 7

I have lost all hope.Father,my superman,has felt I'm glad he got out but I wish I could have gotten out too.There is nothing I can do now.It's just me and mother and the boys.I'm going to die.She is going to kill me.I hope she does it fast.God help me.Amen.

Chapter 6

Mother must hate me alot.She tried to poison me,I don't know why she wants to hurt me.I do everything she wants me too.I wish the two days before the children services lady came could have lasted forever,it reminded me of the old mom that I loved.I really hate it when mother makes me lay in the tub with cold water for hours.When I heard my bothers outside listening to their Halloween music and carving pumpkins while I'm laying in freezing water it made me wanna scream.when mother went into labor father let me play with my brothers and cooked for us and I got seconds!I wish mother would stay away forever,but as soon as she returned it was the same thing again.I really wish we could just be a family again.Even thou Father is a totally different person when mother is around I wish he would stay around.I never know when the next time I'm going to see him is and it hurts inside to see me go.I never will tell him that but I'm sure that he really knows.

Chapter 5

I knew things were getting worse with me and father after i told him she had stabbed me and told me that I had better go get the dishes done.Is this what a family is suppose to be like?Does he understand I'm hurting really bad right now?What happened to my superman?After mom stabbed me she had no remorse,it was like nothing had happened.Later that night I felt like I was a small part of the family again.Had the "accident" set me free?For a night it did,but i woke up the next morning and it was the same thing.When will she stop?Will she ever stop?No matter how much mother says I'm a bad boy,I know I'm not a bad boy,mother is sick.

Chapter 4

Why doesn't mother understand I love her and I try not to be bad?Why does she do these things to me?I don't understand.I thought I had a tactic going...I could ask the neighbors for lunch,and tell them I lost mine.That worked out pretty good until one lady knew mom,then I got it. She punishes me for stealing food...but if she would just fed me a little bit then I wouldn't have to steal.Father said that and then I had to eat my Own puke.I wish things would go back to the old days.I hate when Father is away even though when he is home he doesn't really notice me anymore.When he was away last time she made me drink ammonia.I thought I was going to die right there.When we went on vacation while father and my brothers were away she made me eat Russell's soiled diaper.I would never do any thing mother does to me to her.Doesn't she love me?Am I really that bad?

Chapter 3

Why do I always be bad?I don't try to.I love mother i really do.I ran away from my aunts to be with mother and the family.Why doesn't she get that?After everything she does I love her.I wish I could have gotten those paint by numbers dad bought me for christmas.I always knew something was wrong with my mother but i never really knew what until she wanted me to lay on top of the stove.Am I really that bad?I try not to be.I wish I could be like Ron and Stan and go to cub scout meetings.She says that I'm a bad boy and that's why I cant move on to second grade...but i'm one of the smartest kids in my class.She thinks I have made her life a living hell but im sure she doesn't know how bad she has made my life.If she only knew how much I hurt physically and metally.

Chapter 2

I remember the good old day.When mom let us have pets,when we took family trips and shared holidays.I wish things could have stayed that way.The best place was the Russian River-I would od anything to stay there.Mom showed so much love toward us.I wonder if she will ever go back to her old ways.

Chapter 1

I can't believe I had food today.I don't understand why mother starves me,I try to be a good boy but sometimes I just can't make her happy.I only wish the lies she tells me were true.I wish that i did run into the door maybe she would love me.At school I know i'm just going to be made fun of too.If only they knew I wasn't a bad boy.I'm late and I go to the office.I see the nurse,oh no she knows already.As she ask what happens I know I'm in trouble.They tell me things are going to be okay as they give me cookies but I know the same thing only worse when I get back to mothers house.If only they knew how bad it was.The cop comes in and I know I'm going to jail.I would rather be there,but I shouldn't have told on mother.As he takes me out I see the kids playing...I would do anything to play like them.When we get to the station he calls mother...I wanna cry.David,your free.free?What does free mean?